Changes & Total Randomness

Bear with me.  Please.

 

There are some changes coming.  If the Lord wills.

 

Plan to sell the bus.

 

That’s just one.  Leaves me kind of stranded, at least in town.

 

I can live with that, because there are lots of changes I want to make in the house.  Having to stay home will help me make them I guess.

 

I want to make changes.  Really what I want is for my job as teacher and mom to be my JOB.  Like 9-5 with a boss and everything.

 

I want to change my focus and have a schedule and a list of things that need to be done.

 

I have all sorts of excuses.  We moved my desk and it threw my off.  I haven’t been able to get back on track.

 

I want to have a routine for our lives and our house.

 

I was even challenged to start planning the whole year.  It makes so much sense – the same things happen year after year.

 

I have “what if” questions flying around my head.

 

I am in a tough season with the baby needing the house quiet to sleep.  Everyone goes downstairs or outside and the house kinda stands still.  Seems like nothing gets done.  I just have to keep reminding myself that it’s not forever.  But I’m not transitioning well.  I’m not using time wisely.

 

Do we ever use time wisely?

 

I think I need to pick something and stick to it.  Or simply use the system I have already laid out.  It’s a good system.  I just have to do it.  Instead I do nothing.

 

Today I feel like I wasted the whole morning shopping for next year’s homeschool stuff.  It wasn’t on the schedule for today at all!  The kids watched TV.  Now they are playing nicely downstairs while the baby sleeps and I take this opportunity to tell you what’s going on.

 

I think that maybe I need someone to keep me accountable.  But then that only works if you really want it to work.  Am I willing to do the work to get my house and my life to where I would like it to be?  Or am I willing to do the work to even get close to my goal?

 

It’s an ongoing battle for me.  I don’t know if it is for others or not.

 

Growing up I remember we had a regular routine.  Get up by 6 or 7.  Breakfast was at 7:30 every morning, except Saturday, maybe.  We were out the door by just after 8 for school.  We’d come home and do chores, then homework, then supper, then maybe some TV and then off to bed.  When I started working that routine changed very little.  Now, I understand that we were older than my crew is, but I don’t remember life when I was 9 or 10.  I don’t know what we did.

 

How do you maintain a routine with a baby and a toddler and two preschoolers and two elementary school age? What should normal look like?

 

Just feeling overwhelmed with it all right now.

 

So what do I want to do about it?

 

I want to get up at 5:30 or 6 to get time for myself – Bible, computer, blog, etc.  I love mornings!

Then I can get breakfast going.

Then we could get some chores done.

Then if it’s nice go outside.  If not, book work.

Then lunch.

Then naps.

Then clean up.

Then supper.

Then baths and bed.

And I’d like to be in bed no later than 11.

 

Is that so hard?

 

It is if you are getting up after 7 and sitting at the computer until lunch time.

 

The day is gone.  I can’t save this day, but I guess I can start afresh tomorrow.

 

Tomorrow is a new day, right?

 

Striving to learn and live God's purposes,