Harvey Richard Harris

Happy 5th Birthday, Little Man.

Momma misses you so very much.

I know you are in an incredible place and one day I'll come there too.

Daddy and your sisters miss you too.

The new baby brother and sister that didn't get to meet you don't understand, but we talk about you all the time. They know they have a big brother with Jesus.

Today Mommy's best friend is coming over and we are going to have birthday cake and candles to celebrate today, the day you were born. I wish that you could be here to blow them out. But your little brother W will for you. He'll say, "brday cate tandles, yep. me blow, yep."

Daddy deals with you being gone in his own way. He won't be at the party, but I know that he thinks of you all the time too. He's going to get some first aide training. You'd be proud of your daddy and I know you'd be doing so much with him, if you were still here. Daddy's a fire fighter, you know. He helps people in trouble all the time.

You're five!

I can't believe it has been five years. I know this is supposed to get easier. Some days, I miss you so much. Some days when I see your siblings all lined up, I realize again, that you are suppose to be in the line up too. Then I start to imagine what life would have been like, if you had been able to stay.

K is very much a rough and tumble player, for a girl. You and she would have been close.

CJ would read to you and teach you to tie your shoes, as soon as she knew how herself.

M is younger than you, but she'd have mothered and cuddled you, I'm sure.

W sure could have used a big brother, in my opinion. He beats on his sisters and tackles them to the ground. If you had been able to stay, he'd have someone stronger and more his style to pick on.

Baby R is such a doll. I know that if you were here, you'd be able to get some great smiles and coos from her.

I would be parenting 6 and doing so much more laundry. I would have my hands that much fuller and busy! Oh the comments I would get then.

Alas, God thinks differently than we do. Apparently, God figured I could handle loosing you. And, I guess I am handling you not be here. Oh, some days are harder than others, but the really really hard days are not as often as they once were.

I can't wait to meet you again, Little Man. One day. Right now, I know that you are very well taken care of and God has asked me to look after these other five. So, I need to stay here a little longer.

Have a wonderful happy birthday, Little Man. We miss you like crazy!