Feeling Disconnected

I've been struggling for the last little while with feeling disconnected from everything. My kids and their education. My spouse. My house. My friends - both online and IRL. My blog. My meal planning and groceries. My laundry. Everything seems out of my control and I feel as if someone else is living my life and spending time with my family.

I know some of the reasons I'm feeling this way. I haven't been getting enough sleep at night and have not been napping during the day. I have been fighting with headaches all week; there is one always lingering in the background. Baby R is especially needy lately for whatever reason. DH has been buying the groceries and I have not been paying attention to what he's buying and I haven't been making a menu. If my morning routine and evening routine are off, my days are all off! I haven't been getting any exercise except going up and down the stairs. I've been taking my vitamins, but not drinking enough water.

These are all changeable things. I can get my routines on track so I am getting in enough sleep, and schooling and menu planning. I can up my water intake. I can allow J to take over the child care he is willing to do; I can be gracious in accepting his help in the home and chose not to feel like he's taking over and doing my job and therefore I'm not good enough.

Friday was the beginning of the change. I took out the meat for supper the night before. I kept up on the dishes all day so they didn't pile up. I got about four loads of laundry up drying. I put away all the clothes that were dry and waiting to be folded and put away (my goal for February). I had the children clean up their toys really well and got a start on the basement toy room. I'm hoping to keep up on that momentum.

This post, at Simple Marriage, got me on this line of thinking. One of the biggest things I've noticed is being disconnected from my dh. And it's silly. He's not even working full time and so we are together a lot more than usual! We should be connecting more. I plan to work some of those suggestions from that article into our life. This time of year (March mostly) is especially hard for us and we need each other more. So, look out, Baby, here I come! <> haha