My Anger

Every day I see my anger being mimicked by my children and it makes me sad.  They fight and bicker and holler at one another.  And I know it is because they see it in me and hear it from me.  I know where the change needs to start and it’s not with them.  I am the culprit.  I am the one that creates the emotional state in my house.

I had started Women Living Well’s Making Your Home a Haven challenge but did not complete it.  I am unsure why but the fact remains that my home is not a haven and I do not believe that doing that challenge would have changed anything.  It was just something else to do.  Something neat but that in order to be successful required work on my part.

I have said on other posts on this blog that God keeps putting this issue in my face and that I really do need to work on not being such an angry mama and wife.  Jason is even starting to respond to my anger by being more ill-tempered than usual.  And don’t think I am being harsh on myself.  This is the harsh reality.

There are TONNES of excuses.

I’m so tired!

I just cleaned up that mess.             

                  If they’d just do as they were told.

If they’d just hurry up.                       

If they were in public school, I could . . .

I haven’t eaten properly today.

It’s the baby blues; I must be depressed again.

If he would just nap in his bed.

If you wouldn’t sleep so much!

 

 

Trust me, I’ve used them all.  But they are excuses!

 

God is my strength and my salvation (Psalm 27:1).  I need to trust that He will provide the little things as well as the big things.  It’s so cliché to say, “Just have more faith.” But at the same time, isn’t God’s Word true?  His grace is sufficient(2 Cor. 12:9).  So, I’m claiming His Word as truth and I’m continuing on my journey to a less angry life. 

I have a great life.

I really always have

There is no reason for so much anger.

 

Still diggin',